You know that feeling when you're fretting about how others see you? Well, it's icky. And I am tired of it. Not that I am vain and constantly introverted, but really, even just a little bit of this can taint your whole perspective. It shifts your thoughts off of what is important and doesn't help anyone. Ironically, when I live to please other people I am really only living for myself. How silly. How pointless.
Instead, I want to live with confidence in God, looking to Him for love and acceptance. As I put him first I will be able to see clearly who I am and not worry. And I will have more love for others and be more aware of those around me, focusing outward in the right way. This is who I want to be. I have been up and down in this regard, but I have felt so much happier when I have the right perspective. I have felt His love, guideance, and assurance. It's real and it's beautiful. That's the woman I want to be.